Companion

It's Arthur's Day and J's birthday too. A day to raise your glass of Guinness. Now with extra reason. MK has finally proposed to J. A gang of 4 single friends. Each with unique background and success stories. K got married first and now with a baby girl. Although gay relationship is not legally accepted in Malaysia but I think S already considered himself happily married. Finally, the overdue proposal came and June is engaged too. I am most happy for 3 of them to have found their own happiness.

Suddenly reality has knocked on my door to remind me that I am all alone now. A woman with career & money to spend. That's all.

Was reading an old friend's blog during dinner in the restaurant. 1 of her entry touched my heart so much. I almost cry in public while reading the brilliant words. How could someone in this world wrote something which I planned to write everyday but never have the time to pen it down somewhere?

Monday, April 11, 2011

Is this what you are feeling?

A companion to drink with

A companion to catch a movie with

Someone whom I can have breakfast, lunch and dinner with

But friends could not stay forever as they have a life to live on the next day


A companion to go crazy with

A companion to travel the world with

Someone who understands my humour

My life would be blissfully complete with that someone


Happiness is halved when I could only share it with myself

Even a drinking a bowl of Chicken soup for the soul could not warm my heart

And my bed feels so largely empty no matter how cosy it is.


Happiness is halved when I have no one to share with but myself.

Although I tried very hard to fill up my days,

All the festivities and celebrations always reminded me of my loneliness.


I don’t want to think about it, and so what if I do think about it?

All I could do is to spend all my nights writing in my blog.

Those few comments could never soothe the sense of lost in my heart.


To be alone and emotionally burden-free is actually an emotional burden too.

Too much freedom can cause us to panic about getting lost in it eventually.

If you really envy the limitless freedom I have, how about let’s exchange our lives?

Happiness is halved when I could only share it with myself.

Although I tried very hard to fill up my days,

Nobody knows how lonely I actually am.

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