Well said

Another brilliant one~~~
Tuesday, April 12, 2011


It's 3:05am



I thought I was ready

Ready to keep it all, zip it, and stash it away into the dust.

I thought I would be able

Able to face all distractions, be indifferent, and turn away without a second glance.

Yet, it would not spare me

Spare me of the misery, to open, that callus once more.

Now I am stuck

Stuck over caring about you, wanting you, and needing you.

Because you have given your care, love, and energy to someone else

Someone else before me, whom I am no match for.

All I could do is pray

Pray that you will take a look, at me, once more, and acknowldge my presence.

Then I know, I would be ready

Ready to move on, without, without any regrets.



Posted by ~ Thai Boxing Girl ~

Companion

It's Arthur's Day and J's birthday too. A day to raise your glass of Guinness. Now with extra reason. MK has finally proposed to J. A gang of 4 single friends. Each with unique background and success stories. K got married first and now with a baby girl. Although gay relationship is not legally accepted in Malaysia but I think S already considered himself happily married. Finally, the overdue proposal came and June is engaged too. I am most happy for 3 of them to have found their own happiness.

Suddenly reality has knocked on my door to remind me that I am all alone now. A woman with career & money to spend. That's all.

Was reading an old friend's blog during dinner in the restaurant. 1 of her entry touched my heart so much. I almost cry in public while reading the brilliant words. How could someone in this world wrote something which I planned to write everyday but never have the time to pen it down somewhere?

Monday, April 11, 2011

Is this what you are feeling?

A companion to drink with

A companion to catch a movie with

Someone whom I can have breakfast, lunch and dinner with

But friends could not stay forever as they have a life to live on the next day


A companion to go crazy with

A companion to travel the world with

Someone who understands my humour

My life would be blissfully complete with that someone


Happiness is halved when I could only share it with myself

Even a drinking a bowl of Chicken soup for the soul could not warm my heart

And my bed feels so largely empty no matter how cosy it is.


Happiness is halved when I have no one to share with but myself.

Although I tried very hard to fill up my days,

All the festivities and celebrations always reminded me of my loneliness.


I don’t want to think about it, and so what if I do think about it?

All I could do is to spend all my nights writing in my blog.

Those few comments could never soothe the sense of lost in my heart.


To be alone and emotionally burden-free is actually an emotional burden too.

Too much freedom can cause us to panic about getting lost in it eventually.

If you really envy the limitless freedom I have, how about let’s exchange our lives?

Happiness is halved when I could only share it with myself.

Although I tried very hard to fill up my days,

Nobody knows how lonely I actually am.

Posted by ~ Thai Boxing Girl ~

Bua hahahhaha

Clearing some really old emails. Found this from Aurora. Burst into laughter!

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Aaaawwww....

Who can resist such lovely eyes and sweet smile?

宝贝 我什么都给你!!!

Sleepy

Why I'm always sleepy after lunch? I hate this after lunch feeling everyday. Some said because of the curry. Some said because you had heavy lunch but I don't think so. I just came back from Subway. The sandwich which I ate contains more vegetables than meat and I drank mineral water and now I'm sleepy like hell! @_@

Lazy weekend

I hate to work on weekend. Why can't weekends be lazy with either hanging out with friends or laze at home for movie marathon?

I'm suppose to be preparing for handover but I am still managing new work. Bleh!

7 years 3 months

I did it! I resigned! 7 years is not a short stay in this favorite agency of mine. I always thought I will be very excited and happy to see my cruel boss' dropped jaw upon receiving this letter because I hate what I'm doing now and I hate it even further every time she yell at me in an open office environment.

At first the feeling is Phew! BUT....

then the feeling became awful after she told me she has been working all day outside + only slept 1 hour last night and on top of all this is the fifth bad news she has received today. I wanted to give her the letter on a better day but it seems like everyday is a bad day so I thought WTF!!! Just do it anyway!

I hate to give her this really bad news at the wrong day and wrong time but I have to be answerable to my new company who is willing to wait for me patiently too. Sigh.... why is it so difficult to make some decisions without hurting anyone?

I saw tears at the side of her eyes while she's talking about handover and she really need me to serve 3 months notice. She always complain about my work and performance so I thought if I resign, she will be cool like a cucumber. It hurts me to see such reactions from her. She is one tough lady who doesn't show the weak side of her in front of anyone no matter how bad the situation is BUT today she shed tears because I am leaving her and this account in 3 months time.

7 years of partnership... Well at least I know I am worth some tears from this cold & tough lady.